waiting

while waiting for the science of sleep to come on, i am watching the last half hour of practical magic. it is nowhere as good as the book, but no matter what i am always effected by it.

[well im always effected by family stuff, no matter how bad, mothers and daughters, fathers and daughters, sisters...]

its at times like this that i realise i am a sap. a total and utter sap. its accelerated by the fact that i am going back to london tomorrow. its the right thing and i am so excited for it but its always hard to leave my family. especially after being here for so long.

its completely cheesy but i love my family. they are so cool and funny and smart and comfortable. i mean they are not without their flaws as everyone is but those are flaws that i can handle and embrace even.

the one

[well there are many]

bright side to leaving is that i get to see my sister at the end of next week. something i always am excited for. i really do love her, no matter what. that is an intense bond that no one and nothing can usurp.

im really lucky. i know that. and it makes it that much harder

[and a huge amount easier]

to live my own life.

but now...the science of sleep.

a fantasy world that i can repair to.

a corner of my mind that someone else has created.