Count-down to Take-off

so this is the first, of what i hope is a pretty regular posting habit.

i feel pretty silly, but really, i want to share my experience over there and its really hard to let EVERYONE know whats going on. [ain't i lucky to have SO many friends!]

rest assured there will still be personal e-mails, but this will cut down i hope on repetition... i hope.

really feel it, but Now that prologue is done, you may be asking yourselves why i am writing before i have taken the plunge. well, honestly, its because i am scared. quite scared, to the point where i don'tI'm doing something so huge, i must be scared. right?

i am really lucky, my parents are wonderful and supporting me, but it doesn't help my doubts. it seems silly to harp on it, but i have created this life here, which is fabulous, so why should i leave? but the answer is obvious to me at the same time, the reason i have been so lucky is so that when i come back, i have something and many people to come back to. now the knowledge of all that still doesn't make it any easier.

on the other hand, i am psyched. really very excited. it is so big and so incredible that i have this opportunity.

wow this writing certainly does help, i feel oddly at peace now. in a happy state of excitement, but not so much that my heart beats too fast.

for now, i am content with preparation and visiting friends in new places.